Dear piczo,
it is far to early for me to be blogging but yet I find myself here watching the sunrise with my yummy cup of coffee. A lot has happened recently but I don't want to bore you with the details, the main issues are:
1) I think I've gained weight and it has upset me so so much! I feel so unmotivated to change anything though but I will need to do that to make me feel a little happier.
2) I'm confused and uninspired and just so not me. I feel like university will do no good for my future, how bad is that? I feel like I will never get a job or anything because I'm just not that good at what I'm doing and i feel so unlike me. I don't want to party after the awful incident almost 2 weeks ago and I just don't feel right! I'm barely eating and it has made things worse for me, I've hurt my shoulder and I feel so homesick...
I'm such a big mess of jumbled feelings I don't know what to say... I wish i didn't feel this way.
What do you guys do when you're feeling down? I can't even recall what I do. Maybe i should push myself to go out more, just to walk around the shops or sit with my friends... maybe that will help. Thing is, they want to like go out and party and I really don't think I'm ready for that yet as I'm still a little shook up and paranoid.
I don't know if that's a bad or good thing.
All your comments have been the best, making me feel like I'm not alone and it hasn't just happened to me and most have you been saying you'd never leave the house again. That makes me feel happier as I've at least tried to make it outside at least once a day, but it's bad because I'm not being sociable. I just sit in my room and hope my family come on skype or something. Ugh!
Things really need to pick up or I'll go insane!
